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  • Hello World

    Tuesday, June 02, 20098:28 AM 0 Comment(s)


    *Song for the day*
    Leave - Jojo

    *Message for the day*
    Bakit kaya Leave ni Jojo? Wala lang feel ko lang.. care?


    Weird.. something might have struck me so hard today to make me decide to write something here in my blog. Actually, wala na talaga sana akong intention na ituloy. But due to insistent public demand (wow, feeling) --------- na itigil ko na daw ang pag boblog (haha, downfall) i just like to irritate those people by updating nalang. come on for a change naman.. hay. bangag

    So anong mode? Love mode as usual..
    All time favorite mode... magmomoda ako

    Hmmm. how are we na ba? we're pretty fine. still going strong despite of all my insecurities and doubts na medyo imaginary in a way. he does his best naman to assure me that he's still the one know... but i don't know din.. in a way something is changing. siguro kasi naiinfluence lang ako ng liberated culture sa paligid ko. as much as i want to stop it, since i am moving in this kind of society i definitely can't help it. all we can do is stay away from the conditions. hay.. pero how can i be sure?

    I trust the guy, really. he's really nice to me naman eh.. maybe nagiging demanding lang ako masyado kaya parang mag hinahanap pa ako. urgh. don't want to be that way. wag nang guluhin ang relasyon kung maayos naman ito. psychotic na ata ako.. geez, please no.

    anyway i love the guy. i mean really, really love him.. first love ko sia! sana lang everything will be alright. i'm his third naman eh.. pero ok lng kahit hindi ako yung una.. mahalaga dapat ako na ang huli.. yummy yummy hehe

    hay why oh why.. sana hindi na lang ako na in love. there's so many things to think about. i just need peace sometimes pero i can't help but think about him and sometimes sa mga negative things na pwedeng mangyari.. nakakapagod.. kung hindi ko siguro pinasok itong buhay na ito hindi naman ako masyadong magkakaproblema. pero anyway it's best to have something/someone to think about even if it sometimes give you headache kesa nothing or no one to think about at all. haha. di ba. at least na eexercise ang brain at napapagod ang feelings kesa no activity at na aaccumulate lang ng cholesterol. (sana physically na eexercise din ako, haha)

    anyway, i'm feeling sleepy na.. need to get up early pa at first day of enrolment na bukas. sana maayos namin ng maaga para makapasok pa ako ng office. hayst. gudluck sakin.

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    Pre-working syndrome

    Monday, February 09, 20094:13 AM 0 Comment(s)


    *song for the day*
    Suddenly I see - K.T. Tunstall




    *message for the day*


    money can definitely change anything






    am i doing the right thing? anyway... i certainly have the opportunity anyway, so i might as well try it

    confused? anong sinasabi ko?

    well, i'm actually thinking about the work that i plan to take. on financial terms well,for sure, napaka liit lang ng sweldo. but i'm not looking for large amount of money anyway. o... actually oo.. since i want to help someone tungkol sa financial needs. but given my background and my no promise of staying for so long... then how can i get a work with good salary and would not tie me on a bond? okay na rin siguro ito... for the meantime that is. at least there could be a sustainable amount of salary na pumapasok kesa sa wala. hay.. buhay

    bakit kasi kelangan ng pera para mabuhay? haha. stupid.

    ganun talaga siguro ang buhay. usually, kung saan ka kikita dun na ang mag dedecide, no matter what you think about it. anyway, masaya naman ako sa desisyon ko. learn new things, get new challenges in life. that's the most important thing. and of course i'm determined to serve and give my very best to promote my employer's best interest...

    this is it, pansit. i'm actually moving to the working arena for real. hay, pano ba maging responsable sa labas? hehehe..


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    I'm burning away..

    Friday, March 23, 200711:16 PM 0 Comment(s)







    *message for the day*
    it's nice not to be so alone... but i really am alone
    *song of the day*
    the distance - evan and jaron

    one of my favorite songs... the distance by evan and jaron.. nakapa pathetic actually nia.. pero for the sense lang of being romantic in a way, well yes, okay naman siya. pero i know that i shouldn't be indulging in too much emotional, or should we say, subjective songs.. i know know...

    hay, bakit ba palagi na lang ganito mode ko.. siguro i've been to hard on myself lately, these past few months talaga, kaya should we say na ngayon ko lang nalalabas ang mga pent up emotions.. especially now na i'm away from him.. distance nga...hayyyyyy


    preoccupied without you....

    you know that i'll protect you from all of the obscene..


    i know, i'll always remember him... siguro when i'm out in the sea, those moments na sia ang malapit sa kin, maaalala ko talaga..but it's just pure bullshit that he's remembering someone else...

    i still like him.. even though pinagtawanan niya ako ng madapa ako sa batuhan..then he became my guide.. he said "ganito kasi..sundan mo hakbang ko.."

    like a father..a freakin' good looking father to be exact..

    but i don't need a father ..

    but it's time to face the truth...i will never be with you...






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    *message for the day*
    i know we'll see each other again
    *song of the day*
    oo - up dharma down




    you'll remember me when the west mind moves...


    sa ngayon, kinakaharap ko ang isa sa pinakahihintay (at pinaka kinakabahan) na mga pangyayari sa buhay ko...okay lang naman sana siya as a whole.. but the problem is the side effects...as usual, love mode haha..
    hindi ko siya makakasama...yun ang napagdesisyunan.. anyway, hindi rin naman ako umaasa.. sigurado sa ibang gawain siya ilalagay. hayy..okay lng yan.. mind set..



    di mo lang alam naiisip kita...



    pakshet dakilang torpe pa naman ako pagdating sa mga ganung bagay.. as in no joke.. di ko nga siya makausap ng maayos eh pag kaharap ko na siya. for some reason na pipipe na ako at wala nang sense ang mga nasasabi ko.



    i get so weak in the knees i can hardly speak, i lose all control..



    pero that is all in the past now.. he's certainly in love with someone else, with confirmation from the girl mismo (tibay eh no!) hayy..



    love hurts... love sucks...



    i shouldn't be thinking this way.. anyway, it's not that i'm SOOOO bitter about the whole thing. i can accept the freakin' reality.. it's just that i feel so bad about the whole thing.. but i'm sure i can manage.. but the question is.. when?!



    pretty baby don't you leave me.. i have been saving smiles for you..



    i think makikita ko na rin ulit siya bukas after many days na wala ako.. haha, then afterwards we'll go separate ways...and then maybe in the near future we'll see each other again. i mean, that is if we're both in the place and all the usual crap. i will really miss his HARDCORE laugh and his punching-my-stomach-because-it's-hurting-so-damn-much syndrome.



    it's funny how we suddenly fall in love with the most peculiar of people, very different from what we really thought we're going to be in love with...it just BANG! stares on your face and starts to play jackstone like a kid.. haha, funny



    sorry, i'm starting to lose my sense of humour...




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    A new Me

    9:10 PM 0 Comment(s)





    *message for the day*
    hindi maaaring magkatotoo ang pag-ibig sa hindi magkapareho ng estado sa buhay
    *song of the day*
    fields of gold - eva cassidy



    matagal na mula nung last akong nag update... at sigurado akong hindi ako sigurado kung kelan ulit ako makaka update matapos nito... days..weeks...months and even years pa ulit... baka nga hindi na... i just want to grab this oppurtunity na maka update akohabang pwede pa..hehe...it's has been a very strange year for me.. but one thing's for sure: i know what i'm doing and i'm sure about it.

    anyway, i'm going to start the crap i'm thinking about..

    hindi maaaring umibig ang isang tao sa hindi niya ka-uri... yan ang kasalukuyang kalagayan ng ating lipunan. Hindi totoo ang mga pinapakita sa mga palabas na nagkakatuluyan ang mga super duper mayayaman sa mga super duper mahihirap (lalo pa kung sa usapin na magkaiba ng pagtingin sa buhay).. kung sa mas mababaw na termino, hindi iibig ang anak ng magsasak sa anak ng haciendero.
    Hindi teleserye ang buhay.
    Be realistic.


    mamahalin mo ba ang isang taong maaaring katulad ng mga nagsasamantala o umaapi sa mga taong nasa katayuan niyo? Ang mismong taong nagsadlak sa inyo sa kahirapan? O kaya tatanggapin ba sa lipunan ang ganoong relasyon? Sakto lang ba ang pag-ibig para sagipin kayong dalawa? Posible ba iyun? Hindi. Maliban na lang kung si Bea Alonzo ka at minamahal mo si John Lloyd.

    Ngayon, dumating ako sa sitwasyon na ganito ang kinaharap ko. I can't believe that i've had a very compressed and biased view on love. but now i'm learning. there's more in love than we can really imagine. and the greatest love that someone can offer is what we call "class love"... o pag-ibig sa ka uri... mamahalin mo ang isang tao dahil tulad mo siya rin ay napagsasamantalahan....ang mga magsasaka, manggagawa at iba pa... ito ang tunay na pag-ibig, na wala nang hihigit pa...



    pero sa ngayon, ako'y nasa kalagitnaan ng tinatawag na sex love..o pag-ibig sa isang partikular na tao sa inyong uri..



    sa isang banda, i'm quite confused... we're not from the same class... i'm a peti-b and he's a magsasaka... or mangingisda to be exact..but then again because of what we are fighting for and because we're holding on to the same beliefs... we are now as one...
    that has made all the difference...

    hayyy.. buhay... bakit ba ganito ang hypothalamus ko!?

    i'm wondering what you're doing... wondering where you are.....
    i know where he is... and i know that he's thinking of someone else...

    hayy... bitter....
    anyway, i shouldn't be thinking of that thing for now.. maraming mas importanteng dapat gawin.. and pagkakaroon ng pag-ibig ay bonus na lang sa buhay kong to kung sakali.. pero hindi dapat doon nakatutok
    i've managed to live without a guy... and i'll continue living even without one...
    can you take it all away? you shoved it in my face... this pain you give to me...

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    Love Mode

    Monday, September 04, 20066:44 AM 0 Comment(s)


    **message for the day**
    wag na masyadong umasa, lalo na kung masyado nang matagal...
    **song of the day**
    at the edge of the earth - blessed union of souls



    exactly what i'm trying to avoid.
    ayokong mag love mode pero love mode tlaga ako ngayon. shit. no joke. pero not so hardcore "love mode" naman. it's like... never mind, i'm ranting as usual. stupid me. (kicks computer) and i'm blaming the computer for my stupidity.

    dati akala ko kung gusto mo ung tao pwede kau madevelop sa isa't isa kahit konti lang naman kung magiging close kayo. dati akala ko kung close kayo ng tao eh pwedeng maging kayo eventually. damn. mali pala. i was talking about male-female BESTFRIENDS. not male-female lovers. hindi pwedeng mapagpalit ang dalawa. sinaksak ko na sa kokote ko.

    bakit nga ganun? kung sino pa ung lagi mong kasama, kung sino pang lagi mong katawanan at ka bonding, kung sino matagal mo nang nakakasalamuha eh hindi pa iyon ang dapat mong mahalin? bakit hindi mo magustuhan yung taong malapit sayo at laging handang tulungan ka? bakit dun ka pa sa hindi ka naman pinapansin at halos minsan mo lang talaga makita?
    ahh.. lam ko na..

    nagkakasawaan siguro ang magkakaibigan minsan.

    ay mali..

    siguro, hindi lang niya tlaga alam kung gaano ka kahalaga kung lagi kang nandian. kaya ung mga taong hindi nia masyado nakikita ung na mimiss nia lagi. sa bagay, kung present ka naman all the time sa tabi nia eh hindi ka nia ma mimiss. hmm, un ay kung ganun nga.. pero kung iba tlaga ang gusto ng tao.. bakit mo pa pipilitin? bakit di ka na lng makuntento sa kung sino ang naghihintay sayo at hindi nagpapakahirap sa paghihintay sa ibang walang namang pakeelam?

    hayyy.. buhay... prang life...

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    Wasting my Time...

    Tuesday, August 01, 20069:48 PM 0 Comment(s)



    **message of the day**
    Mas mabuti na ang ikaw ang maghintay kesa ikaw ang hintayin
    (paimportante?!)
    **song for the day**
    Blurry - puddle of mudd

    Hay. After ten years naisipan ko na ulit mag update sa blog ko. hindi ko kasi cia inaadvertise kya wla na minsang akong "care" sa kanya. Anyway, since nasa trend na naman ang blogs then i probably would update more.

    Andito ako ngayon sa school.. sa SC at nagpapalipas oras bago ang meeting namins sa Alay Sining mayang 1. Haggard nga eh kasi kanina pa 11 break ko wala naman akong magawa. Well, i couldn't leave and go home naman..because i promised na aattend ako ng meeting. Si kuya namir kasi eh!! hehe.. joke. wla namang akong sinisisi. pero okay lng din naman na maghintay since may "hidden agenda" din ang pagpunta ko rito. wahahaha. sama eh no. sorry, kung prang ang "wengweng" kong magsalita. giniginaw na kasi kamay ko (mahina ako sa lamig eh..=P) hayy...

    Hectic na schedule ko ngaun kahit na wla akong Math17 o kung anu anong chem.. haha (go eng'g!!) pero dami naming reporting sa educ.. todo career naman ako. of course, first reporting ko ito sa aking college life!! yey.. kaya lng hindi natuloy kahapon ung report kaya nalipat sa friday. actually, buti naman kasi hindi pa ako ganun ka confident kahapon.. aayusin ko pa siya. pero sayang yung pinuyat ko para lang dun..
    hala sige.. 1 na pla.. lalayas na ako...babush.

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    Feel na Mag-College

    Friday, March 24, 20068:42 PM 0 Comment(s)



    **message of the day**
    Government office din ang UP at walang office pag Saturday
    **Song for the day**
    Life's a bitch - Shooter

    *~asuka and rei~*

    pumunta kami kanina UP mga 10 ng umaga para kumuha ng syllabus sa COE. kaya lang sa kasamaang palad ay wala palang office pag Saturday sa UP kaya hindi open yung sa kanila. Kakainis, nasayang lang ang pagpunta ko dun kasi naman wala rin naman pala. Ang init pa naman at napaka traffic sa tapat ng veterans mababaliw ka talaga.

    anyway, excited na tuloy ako mag college. last night nung graduation dinner sa school totally bored and out of focus pa ako sa paligid ko. I was thinking "yeah right, it's good na ga-graduate na ako.." pero like... and so what? some people (actually, most students) nung tinanong kung gusto na daw ba nilang mag graduate tapos sabi nila ayaw nila. pero ako excited na ako for some reason. mainly kasi di ko na imagine ang sarili kong nag aaral pa sa quesci at umuulit ng fourth year. grabeh, uulit din ako ng physics and math long test kung ganun! wakeke.. ang hirap naman i-imagine yung bagay na yun. anyway, for some reason talaga natutuwa na akong mag graduate. pero hindi ko pa talaga na realize yung impact nung feeling na yun until last night ng ibigay na samin yung sulat sa UP. grabe, sarap pala ng feeling. tapos nakalagay pa dun na june 13 ang start ng classes. parang ang *~UP, here i come!~* weird ng feeling nia talaga.. ahehe...


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    Wala lang

    Sunday, March 19, 20065:33 AM 0 Comment(s)


    **message of the day**
    dapat hampasin ang paa para dumiretso!
    **song for the day**
    Tell me where it hurts - MYMP
    (nakakarelate ako lalo na ung paa ko)
    wla lang. na isip ko lang na mag update ulit kasi matagal na rin. anyway, wala na naman itong kwenta (as usual). inaantok na kasi ako and masakit pa tuhod ko. yey, papasok na ulit ako bukas!! kahit di pa ako nakakalakad ng maayos kasi clearance na.. 2 weeks na lang graduation na. hay, ang bilis ng panahon! ang tanda na natin..sana hindi pa rin tau magkalimutan. lalo na curie2!!! yey, love you people. (paranoid na ak0) excited na ako sa picnic natin sa friday (dahil sa pagkain-joke) bonding session na naman tayoooo... hehehe, sayang one week akong absent last week di tuloy ako updated sa mga kwento ng mga buhay buhay ng mga tao a kamunduhan!! waa...tsk tsk. okies. sa susunod na lang ako magkukwento. may gagamit na ng phone..!!

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